Heartbroken

Well my Roller coaster is certainly on the downward slope now, I really have never ever felt the emotions that I am feeling now and I never want to feel them again. I am being faced with some devastating news and it seems as there is absolutely nothing that I can do about it.

I am facing losing the three things that I love the most and really cannot bear the thought of that happening. I am sat here watching my two beautiful girls playing with innocent laughter on their faces not realising what is going on while I have tears constantly running down my cheeks.

Access is great but it will never ever replace the fact that the last thing I see before I go to bed are my beautiful girls and the first thing that I see when I wake up is the same sight.

I really now know the meaning of being heartbroken as my heart feels as though it is being broken into a million pieces.