Heartbroken

Well my Roller coaster is certainly on the downward slope now, I really have never ever felt the emotions that I am feeling now and I never want to feel them again. I am being faced with some devastating news and it seems as there is absolutely nothing that I can do about it.

I am facing losing the three things that I love the most and really cannot bear the thought of that happening. I am sat here watching my two beautiful girls playing with innocent laughter on their faces not realising what is going on while I have tears constantly running down my cheeks.

Access is great but it will never ever replace the fact that the last thing I see before I go to bed are my beautiful girls and the first thing that I see when I wake up is the same sight.

I really now know the meaning of being heartbroken as my heart feels as though it is being broken into a million pieces.

The Roller Coaster of Emotions

The last two weeks have been a bit of a Roller coaster Ride for me with even the tiniest of things getting me down. It has been a constant battle with my 4 year old to get her to do anything the first time I ask her to but I think that is on the up now.
Georgie was 1 years old on the 7Th February, time has certainly flown by there and even she has been a bit of a pain waking up at all hours of the morning which hasn't been too good as I have to get up at 4ish for work.

Talking of work that has been getting me down a bit with all the extra hours even though I realise it is necessary to pay for our holidays. I have been told that my round will be sorted out by the beginning of April and I will be going back to working my proper hours. Today, Monday 22 February sees my 1 year anniversary of doing extra on my round, not bad considering it was only supposed to be for 2 weeks.

Overall I think my personal life has started to turn the corner and is on the up again, I sincerely hope so.

Away from my personal life it is great to see Aston Villa doing so well, a great 5-2 victory over Burnley yesterday, a FA Cup Quarter Final place beckoning if we can overcome Crystal Palace on Wednesday and not forgetting the Carling Cup Final against Manchester United on Sunday. Unfortunately I gave my Season Ticket up this year so I cannot get a ticket for the Final so will probably watch the game in the pub.

I have been busy adding products to our web sites, promoting them and even been promoting Local Band Fifteen English Pounds on Facebook so I have been very busy with no sign of a let up anytime soon.

We went to Malvern Theatre on the 13Th February to watch The Rocky Horror Show, Claire bought me tickets for my Christmas Present. We had a fantastic time and it was great fun dressing up although for some reason I had a few funny looks when I got back to the pub afterwards.


Last week saw what can only be described as one of the lowest points in Evesham's long History. Thursday 11Th February saw crazed father Chris Grady drive is car into the River Avon with his two Children Ryan and Gabby inside. Ryan and his Father managed to escape straight away but Gabby remained trapped inside for two hours, she survived but lost her battle for life on Sunday 14Th February.
The rescue services did a fantastic job but questions have to be asked why this day and age that not every county has adequate rescue equipment as specialist Dive teams had to come from neighbouring Avon and Somerset. It seems in this Country we seem to care more about giving money to Asylum Seekers and dossers who have no wish to work than look after our own law abiding, tax paying citizens.
Since this awful tradegy there has been so much public out pouring of emotions with flowers, toys and messages being place on the tree in the Market Square, several Facebook Groups have been set up where you can leave your messages of condolence and even one where you can leave all of your messages of hatred etc to the killer.
Yesterday (Sunday 21st February) saw several hundred people gather in the Market Square for a minutes silence and balloon release.

Chris Grady has been charged with two accounts of attempted murder with one expected to be changed to murder the next time he goes to court.

I am sat here writing this looking at my two beautiful daughters and wondering how anyone can do this to their own children, he is certainly reason enough to bring back the Death Penalty.